The word is test.
//Who Is Being Tested?
“...Test me in this, says the Lord Almighty…” Mal 3:10
I keep forgetting my turns on “Words With Friends”. If you forget long enough the computer assumes your resignation and loss. Really, all players lose. All that's left is a bunch of random words with simulated value that say nothing and remain in limbo.
I feel now like the game is over. No winners here. We are just tired of playing and no one is saying it out loud. I guess each of us think we have spoken over time, but the words never connected and became relationship. //
Is it all a test of our performance? Relationship goes much deeper than that. My relationship with Christ is never based on my performance. He is not just waiting for me to take my turn. I am not being tested. It is His faithfulness to me that is being proven.
No matter what things look like He doesn't pack up the pieces and resign. He bids me to trust Him and walk with Him where He walks. It is not about passing or failing. It is knowing Him. When I am in relationship with Him, then will I be content.
Right now I feel empty, a vacuum for God to fill. That is my only hope.